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Crucible Con
So on the 20th me and my wife went to a kink convention and it was amazing. The first day there we went to the venders to see what was there we had diner with our friends and play partners that ...
The first play date
So yesterday I had my first play date since being open with my with and my hands were shaking the whole time. We went to the movies and could not tell you what happened in it we made out the who...
Opened up the highs and lows
So me and my wife have been open about two years but this year we both have actually tried to be with other people. I went on a date with a friend of ours that my wife actually wants to date as w...
A first in a decade
So this week I went to a gloryhole, it was in CT in a nice looking pornshop. It wasn’t my first time at a gloryhole I have been to a few at folsom in San Francisco. It took me a minute to build u...
Well i did it
So me ans wife have been in a dead bedroom for over 7 months again and it has been driving me crazy. We are in an open relationship her idea for over a year but both really haven’t used it. Well ...
Dead bed
It has been 5 months since the last time me and my wife have fucked or fooled around. Today I was rejected once again, I know I’m not owed sex but it’s hard to think down on myself because of it....
To the doctor i go
So Thursday I went to the doctor for the first time in a long time for a physical, and some problems I have been having. The good thing is that I am now at 320 lbs, but last year I was at 365 so ...
In the mirror
Today I looked at myself in the mirror and I cried, I cried because I’m failing at everything, in failing at life, failing my marriage, failing kicking my addiction. I looked in the mirror and co...
Just fucking great
So my 40th birthday is now called off because my wife has to be on call all week. It’s the first time in 10 years I’ve looked forward to a birthday and I can’t do anything but stay home.
She wants the past
She keeps saying she wants who I used to be, but that person is no more. She keeps saying how she wants me to act how I did when we first got together but that was 10 years ago. I’ve changed and ...
I dont feel married
Those are the words said to me last night. The truth is I kinda feel the same, we both are just coasting through everything. A spot of happiness here and there but the most part is just silence. ...
Dead bed
It has been over 4 months since the last time I have had anything sexual happen in the bedroom. It’s crazy to ask for sex I feel like I’m begging at that point, but even if I get a yes it’s been ...
Well this is dark
So on Sunday I was going to kill myself. Sunday everything just crashed down on me and I couldnt take it anymore. I put my son down for a nap and walked into my bathroom locked the door and grabb...
