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2/21/2021
Cloning animals - mixed thoughts. It isn’t natural. But if you think that way, in vitro fertilization also isn’t natural. Creepy and cool.
2/19/2021
I couldn’t resist the 🪴🌺 at Trader Joe’s :) 4 weeks till the big day 🏥
2/17/2021
Covid variants, TX blackouts, … 🙏🏽🙏🏽
2/15/2021
So much snow 😮😃😃😃 ❄️ ⛄️ in this part of TX, It’s so pretty!!!
2/14/2021
Happy love day everyone 🤗 💜
2/12/2021
Family time in Atlanta :)
2/11/2021
✈️, Atlanta - job here or Texas… It’d be nice to be elsewhere but 🤔
2/9/2021
He will never not be in my mind or heart 😌 I like to give him massages and cook for him My “concept” of happiness changed a lot in the past year. Happiness isn’t being “happy” all the time. Eve...
2/7/2021
First time I watched football, and liked it! 😀 and cuz I looked up the rules
2/4/2021
I wanted to tell him happy bday on social media but then I felt inhibition and I felt uncomfortable given the situation. But then later I felt lame why didn’t I wish him. Then I thought I’d look ...
2/2/2021
🎈🎈🎈🎉😀
2/1/2021
Volunteering this week 🙌🏽 :D it’s been so long
1/28/2021
Ohh ☺️. Now I’m tempted to text the pic (it’s PG not nude). Only if he wants it. When you look back at your past self and see how far you’ve come, it brings a good feeling. Growth is life long.
1/27/2021
I can’t not think about him 🕊 My friend from school wants me to message him a pic of me, holy fucking of fuck she’s too bold, I might get a panic attack haha Crazy boy. Give him a fucking oil ma...
1/25/2021
Why am I thinking about this so much 🤦🏻♀️ It’s okay I’m okay to have confusion. It will resolve
1/25/2021
I was thinking whether or not to post this: I have questions So he wanted it to end and now he wants me back…? As much as I like sex and am horny time to time, if he wants me ONLY for that purpos...
1/22/2021
I just fucked myself and imagined it was him 🕊 I feel it
1/20/2021
Facing one of my fears I used to not like things on social media out of fear I hesitated a lot before I did that, but I couldn’t not like it. I laughed in agreement. Don’t get that self-doubting ...
1/18/2021
I’m so used to being alone, I don’t know what I want. Sometimes I want love but then I convince myself that I’m content. My mom has been there for me, and she “filled the void” but in reality sh...
1/17/2021
Over self-analysis is a demon to the soul I need to let go of fear The weather today :)
1/14/2021
Admitting weakness is honesty and freeing but labelling/judging oneself is being harsh to oneself almost like verbal abuse To accept feeling uncertain. To think of it like that life makes sense ...
My toxicity
When I fear people (because I perceive them as better than me), I either withdraw or I try to behave nice so that they accept me. I fear disapproval and conflict The undignified part of me falls...
In agreement
I agree My gut said “Let it go” for a very long time
Talking to myself
I never had a deep relationship with anyone besides my mom. No one I never shared deep shit except on here, and with another guy (inappropriate relationship) >2 years ago Let it be, things wil...
Journal
He thinks I don’t get him What I think: he wants to love me forever, I heard the Sinatra song, I saw the lyrics to every song he’s messaged, he wants to have sex with me. I read everything he say...