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Ramblethinking
Ok. I need to think, and in order to think, I need to write. Also, I’m cold, so walking while I type all this out will help me warm up. “Turn up the heat?” Part of why I keep it cold is so that I...
Goals, or rather the lack thereof.
Where to start… Over the last week I hit a high point of 208.8lbs. To say that frustrated me would be an understatement. But over this weekend I went to Habitat, did some good work there, and fou...
Rambling
Today on reddit I learned about a guy who developed “Mr. Spock” in his mind to help him look at his own life from abstract and logical point of view. He used it as a tool to get over being too ha...
Anxiety
Anxiety. That is the best word to describe how I’ve been feeling for… a long time. Roe Jogan (Go Rojan? Hoe Jogan? Joe Rogan!), via Youtube’s black magic algorithm that only shows popular and non...
Living life.
This is a reply I wrote to a friend, but it was entirely too long to send to her. So instead, I am posting it here, then paring it down to something more manageable for her. Thanks so much for ta...
to-do: title
Ever feel the need to just write? Well, I don’t really have that so much as I have a combination of sickening boredom, lack of purpose, and free time. I lost my job last week. Specifically, I was...
That bitch at work
I was going to write this as a letter to my mother. But in reality, I don’t want to share any of this with her. I don’t really need her opinion so much as I need to write down what’s in my head t...
Scheme scheme, plot plot
I took today off from Habitat. Partly because I was starting to burn out in my soul, partly because my muscles were sore, partly because the group we had Wednesday was…I got to interact with the ...
Stuck
Woo! Vacation week. Yesterday was a women’s build day with Habitat and I spent the day with two ladies jackhammering out a floor in the basement of a house we’re renovating. The ground water is u...
I understand why I need to quit my job, finally.
So, I finally understand why I hate my job now and I didn’t back when I first got hired. I finally managed to work out what has gotten under my skin and totally sapped out my joy. Short version, ...
So about that depression...
My walkstation is doing its job today. I didn’t walk yesterday, but I did help install a drainage pipe that tuckered me out pretty good. But today…I’ve overeaten, I’m paying for eating potato wed...
Depression, and endgame spoilers
There will be Endgame spoilers in this post. Mostly because I want to talk about one of the characters and something someone on Reddit pointed out. Hopefully this is enough text to block out the ...
4/28/2019
I have been realizing / thinking a lot, recently, about the fact that I am waiting to start my life. I don’t have a life. Not really anyway. You see, I spent my teenage and early 20 years getting...
Weight loss, food, and related topics.
I spent my entire life obese. The first time I stepped on a scale I think I was 85 lbs, and that was before my 10th birthday. By the time I was a teenager I was over 300 lbs. By the time I gradua...
Book Description
This isn’t a book. It’s a journal. It’s where I write my thoughts about the goings on in my own life and the world.
