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Life Achievement Unlocked: Timmy's First Tattoo.
Jesus, I sound like an afterschool special. WATCH AS TIMMY EXPERIENCES NEEDLE-THRASHING PAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME. Of COURSE, I pick a spot that's massively sensitive (hipbone) and makes you pani...
Prelude to Tattoo.
So I got around to making an appointment to get my first tattoo. Physically driving there and walking inside was literally the hardest part. I've actually gotten better at improvising social in...
On Porn.
All things considered, if it weren't for internet porn, I'd be vastly undereducated in the Sexual Arts and Sciences. Of course, it's more than just porn, but shh, I like being lewd and fucking w...
Balance
Moderation may be a theme I've known for a long time, but it's quite apt when applied to EVERYTHING. For a very long time, I've self-identified as a sub. Yet in relationships, I end up taking o...
Exile.
Was reminded of a conversation I had with Cliff well over a decade ago. We were talking about how alone we feel. But he took issue with me. He pointed out how he had been categorically ostraci...
Mondays.
An anxious day. A paralyzing day. Thoughts and counterthoughts. No alcohol, instead caffeine. Interesting how it kind of has the same effect. I can't think myself through it, so instead I di...
A chance.
I've known manic depressive people, and their manic phases always felt FAR more energetic than this. That's why I don't think it's that, just pervading depression. No matter what mood I'm in, o...
Occupying time.
It really annoys the crap out of me how much my moods seems effected by the weather. I just felt so terrible yesterday. I think... I may be able to be productive today. I have a long list of ...
Week-to-week.
It's a weekly cycle for sure. I never have "two good weeks in a row". I was able to salvage last week by hitting the gym four days in a row to get myself back on track. Yet, as always, major a...
Sausage
So I finally used the butt-ton of sausage that I had in the freezer. Found a recipe with onions and peppers. Pretty simple, really. I uh, misread it. I thought a "clove" meant "a whole garlic...
Yay money.
With the advent of modern technology, doing your own taxes is pretty easy. I'm getting back everything that was withheld. For whatever reason, I actually owe a couple dollars in state taxes. I...
On Communication.
I really think "wavelength" is the most appropriate word to describe meshing correctly with another person's communication style. It's clear to me now that Candi and I just were on two different...
Kobayashi Maru.
Attitude is a funny thing. If you tell someone, "You need to think positive!" the vast majority of people are going to reply, "You need to go fuck yourself!" It's difficult to tell people that ...
Progress.
I failed my midterm, for sure. Who fails a take-home midterm? I don't know, man, I've been wanting to get to the library, it just turns into this THING in my head where I'm not sure if I'm goin...
Simple things that make me feel better.
Doing sets of pull-ups and push-ups in the morning. Downing massive quantities of water at every opportunity. Peeing. Showering in the morning, or after workies. Eating breakfast. Brushing my tee...
Happy Wanking.
As a complete aside, it just occurred to me that my sex drive is returning. Not like some overbearing thing, but I've masturbated three nights straight for the first time in YEARS. Mind you, th...
Metal.
I'm never hungry in the morning. I mean, if I have workies, I'll ingest something. But I can easily go until mid to late afternoon before I actually feel hungry. Hrm. Thought I had somethin...
This isn't me.
I had a spare thought the other day which has been ringing in my head (in a good way). I was musing about how I don't want medication because I'm afraid it'll make me "not me". And then I thoug...
No direction.
I actually was quite content last week. I had four days off in a row and managed to stay dry ten days straight. I felt like I actually had energy for once. Got to the gym four days, and was ot...
About time.
Mark your calendars, I'm in a fantastic mood. Day nine dry, and I'm four for four at the gym this week. Am I over the hump? God damn, I better be, I've suffered enough. Even in the darkness, ...
Your Mom's Vagina.
The fog is clearing. THE FOG IS CLEARING. I'm still a sardonic asshole, but my ability to smile is returning, so I kind of sound like this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xY-oili63QQ What is...
Empty Dreams.
You're supposed to spend your twenties figuring out who you are and what you want out of life. How to present yourself accurately and how to make yourself happy. Almost 6 months into my 30's, a...
Try and relax.
Don't know whether it's the weather or the depression or inconsistent sleep or the drinking but I've been so tired and demotivated all year. Yet when I think back to the years before I met Candi...
Sadz.
I just kind of woke up sad today. I got 8 hours of sleep last night, but when my alarm went off, ugh, I just wasn't in the mood. Though, part of why I made sure to go to bed early is because I ...
Subjective Reality.
On the one hand, I still believe, to some degree, that we choose our reality. That we choose the perspective for which we see the world. We can choose to focus on different facets, whether they...
Book Description
Public entries which I hope are on par with Classic Timmy™.
