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I went over to Bruce’s yesterday evening where we made vision boards together. Her girlfriend joined us after her class. It was a quaint evening. Mine turned into an art piece and not so much int...

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My depression has come out to play again. This low is because of the highs that come with my anxiety. My anxiety is high because I am nervous about starting class on Tuesday. I will be fine, ever...

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There is a contagious psychospiritual disease of the soul, a parasite of the mind, that is currently being acted out en masse on the world stage via a collective psychosis of titanic proportions....

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I woke up frustrated this morning. I was thinking about the long dragged-out debate that I had with Kyle yesterday. He came over for lunch and we bought some wine and we managed to get into it wi...

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I had the worst stomach pains of my fragile little life last night. I woke up to a panic attack but I also feel that I pissed my body off. My stomach is still recovering from whatever it is doing...

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My depression has come out to play. Usually, I don’t feel heart-crushing sadness. Just lethargy. I’m just void of all motivation and willpower whenever my depression episodes happen. Today, my he...

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I finally made my way down to the Adult Education Centre. I almost stopped myself twice but I managed to force myself to circle back. It’s a new building. The environment looks and feels great. C...

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I called the Adult Education Centre today. At least, I thought that I did. It was the school division’s office but they gave me the correct numbers to call. Those places are not open until Monday...

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In one hundred years we will all be dead and nobody is going to remember us. So, fuck it. I heard that line somewhere and it lives rent-free in my head. What it seems to be inspiring is me having...

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I kept myself pretty busy last week. I reconnected with Kyle. I was happy to see that he is living alone and single. He’s always been one of those people who can’t be single for more than five mi...

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Since I got back to the city I have been reconnecting with some friends. Balance, boundaries and discipline are the three words I have been using as a mantra. I keep seeing 666 everywhere. My fri...

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My camping trip with the girls last weekend was pretty good. I had some slight issues with vertigo at first which is actually pretty funny. It’s like this, I live in the prairies. I don’t travel ...

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Since my last entry, I have been experiencing higher anxiety levels. I consciously decided to draft up that letter I wrote about my roommate and read it to her. I can’t carry this in any longer. ...

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It’s not that I don’t lack empathy. I used to have the disease to please but after I did my own inner work I can see now that people really do just suck at life and health. They have weak charact...

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I went to bed in a bad mood. I had a headache and I am waking up with the same headache. I got about nine hours of sleep at least. The headache is due to me hitting my head at work again. I recei...

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I received a written verbal warning at work today. I hit my head too many times within a short span of time. We were recently told to report every little incident, which I wouldn’t have if I knew...

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I picked up extra shifts this week. I could use the money. I wanted the extra time off, after all, but I will be okay. My avoidance and procrastination saga continues. These will not be my proble...

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For dinner last night Toni and I went out to eat. She officially asked that we find a new place when our lease expires. I am not feeling it. I already came to that conclusion just a couple of wee...

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I’m self-aware that I sound like a broken record. This is because I am in a rut. Sure, there is rare conjunction with Mars, Uranus and the North Node in Taurus which can wreak havoc and disrupt o...

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I ended my day with crippling lethargy and a headache, again. I was like goodbye cruel world by 8 pm. I got a solid 9-hour sleep. I think these are signs that I need to detox. I’m going to fast t...

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My mind is all over the place, my emotions are all over the place while I am just always in the same place, I feel stuck. I cannot connect to anything esoteric. I am indentured in what the annoy...

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My mother was in a little car accident over the weekend. She waited a whole day before she told any of us. It’s so her to put that off to not ruin our weekend. She is okay, she will need some phy...

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I haven’t been the most productive in regards to advancing my goals. I am working with a life coach, I am rumbling with my procrastination issues. My issues with avoidance. I label it My Negative...

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I went to a couple of thrift stores yesterday. I felt compelled to look at books and I managed to score some that piques my interests. Encyclopedias about various religions, astrology, healing, r...

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I’m pretty sure that I have a slight concussion from hitting my head on something at work. I have a permanent headache but I also get hit hard with fatigue throughout the day. It knocks me out. I...

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