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Pain and Waiting
Just discovered my Lupus medication, of which I have been on the maximum dose for six years, causes gradual renal failure. If that is what is causing this pain and.. renal failure. . There’s only...
Pain and Waiting.
Just discovered my Lupus medication, of which I have been on the maximum dose for six years, causes gradual renal failure. If that is what is causing this pain and.. renal failure. . There’s only...
Health Stuff
This entry contains some graphic details and medical stuff. Look away now if you don’t like blood. So… my boobs are leaking. Well.. the right side has leaked a little since I stopped breast feedi...
From Cracked Pepper to..
I used to choose the hottest spicy food because I enjoyed it. The chilli pizza. The jalapeño sauce. I chose the vindaloo. Even the store owner came to make sure I wanted the vindaloo. They all wa...
Only Small.
This is only short. Because I need to write more.. so I will stick to one topic to keep it brief. And because I’m on my phone and typing on my phone is annoying (..and difficult.. probably becaus...
Rot in Hell.
As it turns out, that’s what a mental breakdown feels like. I don’t know if I’m still having it.. Probably? I have been meaning to write for months but clearly haven’t. I don’t feel like discussi...
Cavalry
My parents are here. I had to make it through a week before they arrived. I’d almost managed to clamber back on the wagon by the time they got here. With some help from Valium. In this place, thi...
Stay Inside
Last night, I threatened to kill my six year old and threw her across the room. Then I phoned Ian and told him to ‘please hurry’. He wasn’t even supposed to be here. My body aches from gripping...
The Wagon
I fell off it for a while. I don’t feel like going into detail at the moment. But I’m hanging back on again for now and I suppose that matters more than the details of how I came to fall off. I ...
Secretly, Desperately.
I so desperately want to tell my kids how their father walked out on us on Christmas day 2012. And we came home later, alone, while we were crying at a friends house, a friend we had only met two...
Belated update, oops.
So. I told Ian I didn’t want to see him anymore because I couldn’t cope with being his holiday from life. That lasted three days. Then he went back to pretending nothing has happened. I feel myse...
Psych time
So, I finally went to my GP with a literal written list of ongoings. Increasing anxiety, classic depression symptoms, suspected PTSD from 12 years in an abusive relationship, one child suspected ...
On Health.
I spent some time in the hospital recently. It was a renal abscess and severe sepsis. It started on Australia day, when I went febrile. And the fever lasted eight days total. On the second day I ...
The last week.
Storey became an unbearable sod just four days ago. She holed herself up on the third level of an indoor playgym and bashed anyone who happened to wander past. Failing to realise that the corner ...
On Psychological Abuse.
So tonight.. long story short… my ex told our children “I wish your mother wouldn’t fill your head with such lies.” Long story being, I came home to find him waiting, in his car. I went over an...
Futher Introductions
Let me further introduce myself: I have two daughters, currently aged six and eight years. One, the little one, is weird. Which I can cope with, but she is also crazy nuts and can’t cope with peo...
Starting again.
So.. I’m an ex-Opendiary-er. I heard many of us migrated here. The layout all seems very familiar. I was also known as Salty Pea on OD.. so I hope my followers can find me here. Although I haven’...
Book Description
General things that are on my mind, happening, updates, backdates, rants, blah.