its a thursday. in 2020 Vision

I ended up deleting my last entry. I was operating on very little sleep and not thinking clearly/rationally and feeling oversensitive to just about everything, including feedback from readers. Not any comment or any comments in particular, just an overwhelming feeling of “i’m not sure if writing that entry in this state of mind to make me feel better was my best decision ever”. I actually wrote that entry from home. I hadn’t even gone to work yet. After the awkwardness and goodbye of the morning with The Young Buck I went home and worked from home until noon. It worked out though because that day the maintenance crew was scheduled to come to my apartment to replace my smoke detector (it was over 10 years old and had expired).

I was originally going to just let them come in and do their thing while I was at work, but after that night/morning, I decided I’d just go with it and use them entering my apartment as an excuse to stay home and “regroup” that first part of the day. I still looked like shit when I got to work though. The funny thing is…for as exhausted and shitty as I felt, I went to the 5:30 am kickboxing class, because we’d been up since 3:15 am and I literally had nothing better to do at that time and sleep was out of the question.

I got a full night’s sleep last night. I’m doing better today. I signed up to play in a recreational basketball league that begins in March. It cost more than I’d have liked to play to sign up, but I’m going to need to be putting myself back out there for social events and sports have always felt the most comfortable for me. And its not a competitive league, so it should be more fun than not.

Anywho.