relentless two days in Unabashed Vulnerablility

i just woke up from a 14 hour sleep. yesterday i cleaned the kitchen which took all day after the state it was in, since in the morning my brother messages me “im on my way” there have been talks about him coming to live with the rest of our family here in the house im at and all of a sudden its gonna be today my dad is gonna drop him off and i got issues with my dad so im on edge all day cleaning, and then later in the day my sister wants to make food for an event to make some money but we gotta be fast cause its a bit last minute so the kitchen is a mess again now, my brother apparently didnt tell us hes staying with another sister who lives a few cities away so im not even seeing him today along with my dad so im just watching the radically varied emotions just whizz by me minute by minute the whole day with seeing not seeing my brother and dad, rushing to make rice pudding. then after all that is said and done, we get a power outage at 1 and the slow cookers are turned off for 4 or 5 hours while we are sleeping so the food wont be ready so now were not selling food at the even and today i wake up to my brother who we were helping out of threat of homelessness now saying he cant live with us unless he gets his own bathroom and im an asshole for calling him crazy and telling him we probably cant afford a place where he gets his own bathroom. fuck me dude nothing happened but everything was on the verge of happening and im drained and pissed and tired. i dont wanna even write this bye