The Holidays are not for me. in Dear Diary.

2 years ago, January 1st 2018. I found out that my best friend had passed away, Due to technical poison. He was my most favorite friend. He was my only friend at that.
His birthday is December 25th (Christmas). he would be turning 18 this year!!!!!! An adult. But sadly that’s not how it will be. We had so many memories together and this time of year has been so hard without him. It all still feels like a dream. I really miss him. It really hurts. I hate this feeling of grief, I’ve had it too much. Can i just have him back. I really just want him back. I miss you Nick. Dearly.