08.12.19 in this life inside my head

Why should I waste my thoughts and energy on those who seem to not care about me? I think I definitely care too much about what people think of me and I can never shake that. But how about focusing on those who I actually care about. You know you don’t have to spare anybody and everybody your energy right? Most people do not deserve your frustration nor your attention. Learn how to let go. Learn to not let everybody use you. Learn not to trust so easily any more. Isn’t it sad how things turns out that way? But honestly, you have learnt that not everybody has a good heart. Not everyone turns out like you you thought. Not everyone is the image you painted in your head. Don’t put your heart into something you know is not going to work out. This will just save you the heartbreak and the disappointment people always seem to inflict on you. Stop expecting the best in people. Stop seeing the best things in people. Don’t be blinded by it. People are more heartless than you think. They are more selfish than you think. They would manipulate you if they can. I hope you can feel better reading and writing this. People are always hiding secrets. Just like how you are hiding these feelings from everyone else. People care. But not enough. You need to be the person you are to everyone else to yourself. Be the person you expect other people to be for you. Only you understand you best. Don’t let others get the better of you because they don’t deserve you. You deserve better. You deserve someone like you.