worthless in my horrible life

this is my first entry. i want to come on here to share my experiences in high school and to just tell and share my life. people have the time of their lives at high school but not me. i feel like such a wreck. as a senior 17 year old girl it sucks. my mom expects so much of me not to even mention my friends suck, well not all of them. most of them are fake and they are just people i can’t go to talk about how I’m feeling. theres this one girl especially who makes me feel less than everyone. it hurts. she called my fat and the staff that was their just laughed. i felt worthless, that was a year ago. we were never super close but she did become close friends with the rest of my friends. she just makes me feel bad and i think about a lot and her presence just makes my mood go from happy to i want to jump off a bridge. she tried to apologize but she clearly doesn’t understand what its like to be overweight and not be the typical high school girl. its hard, but i have to say I’m just yawning every time someone asks me whats wrong or that I’m just tired because theirs a tear rolling down my face so i have to play it cool. my personal life is a shit show buts thats for a different entry. if you stayed long enough to listen to my ugly rant, thank you, none of my friends would have cared enough. <3