Here We Go Again in Soul Pouring at Midnight or Later

It’s about that time in my metaphorical cycle that I realize I need to grow but I’m not sure how or in what direction. All I know is that I’m sad and you’re not to blame, I feel neglected but you’re not to blame, although most of how I feel revolves around you. The problem is that if I said any of this out loud it’d be problematic. You’d think you’re a horrible person or in your words the last time we had a similar conversation, “Giving it my all is not enough for you.” And I realize, based on how I got to this moment, it’s not that I’m sad about things that you did but that my mind is not mature enough to accept that we’re no longer kids without responsibility. We’re young adults building lives. You can’t call me twice a day anymore, you can’t come over whenever you’re free, you don’t need to acknowledge our Anneversary at midnight, or take me out to dinner once a month. So why do these little things hurt so bad? Its not the end of romance because I love you more than life. So which way do I grow? Do I grow away from you to stand more independently and deal with it myself or towards you so that I can trust your emotions won’t crumble underneath my subjective truth?