My boyfriend and I have been together for 6 years, best friends for 10 years. He is my person, through and through. We have been through THE SHIT and then some. We have also been through the absolute best times of our life - all through high school, college, and after…
Our sex lives are very active, kinky, fun, some role play, toys, a threesome, etc… Nothing short of boring. After four years of being together, that threesome made us even CLOSER. Fast forward to year 6, we are still kickin’ it. One thing has changed… my boyfriend has started a habit. A habit of jerking off to the same 20 or so women on Instagram at least once a day - if not more. Not to say it’s always 20 women, but always the same girls is my point. Some of which we know personally *and see if in public, some are porn stars, fitness girls, but also some girls he has been with in the past or has talked to…
Don’t get me wrong, I love watching porn, we had a threesome so I don’t mind sharing… but it’s the fact that he’s looking at girls we know and using their photos to pleasure himself - when we could run into them the next day in a supermarket. Should I be uncomfortable? He says it’s not big deal, that if he wanted them he wouldn’t be with me, but it hurts… it makes me sad. It makes me insecure and think twice about what he’s thinking about during sex. I don’t know… it is my fault for going on his social media to see what he is looking up, and I guess if I didn’t I wouldn’t even have a problem to be writing about… but it would still be going on and I would be naive.
What are your thoughts?
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