I have been doing so much thinking lately - mainly about the future. So much so that I feel it is hard to be or stay present. I am constantly thinking about my job, where it is headed, where I am headed, where my relationship is headed, where my family is headed, where my health and body is headed… I am constantly thinking about the future and the endless possibilities and the what ifs.
I have been trying to (re)develop simple skills like putting my phone down to read more, to fully shut off my brain during yoga practice, to keep up on my art and craft projects, to cook/bake more for fun rather than to live, to wake up everyday with a mission to be present and live intentionally. Social media and I share a large part in my unsettled soul, my true addiction is staring at what I don’t have through a phone screen. I’m not traveling enough, my job isn’t enough, my relationship/boyfriend isn’t enough, my butt isn’t big enough and my waist isn’t small enough - the list goes on… but my actual REALITY is pretty damn great.
This Thanksgiving, I am thankful to be able to wake up every day to a man who’s heart I know through and through, to our loving pups, to an apartment we have been able to make into a home with warmth, comfort, and security, to a kitchen with a full pantry and fridge, to a car that is reliable and safe, to a job that actually feeds my soul and fills me with purpose, to coworkers that have become more like family and a boss that is a total mom figure, to a bank account that pays the bills and then some, to a body that can move and exercise with full mobility, to a family that will never stop reminding me how loved I am, to a world where I can decide how I want to live and decide how I want to propel myself into the future. I am thankful for all that I have and all that I have been given and for where I will lead myself in the future. Your life may not be what is plastered all over the internet, but it is yours dammit - so remember what you have and what you have the ability to do.
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