Grateful in standing on tiptoe

I was approved for a medical card and SNAP. I'm grateful for the help, it just really sucks to have to accept it, especially because I shouldn't be in this situation to begin with. No choice right now, I would really rather the benefits go towards absolute need... I foresee giving away gallons of milk, bread, cereal, boxed dinners, whatever I can do for someone who is struggling like me, or worse. I can literally go to Aldi's or Sav-a-lot, get my necessities, and likely finish off someone else's gotta-list. Or take things to a food pantry, boys and girls club for snacks and drinks. $120 doesn't go far, but it is plenty for me over a month.