Hooray for swipe in Das Book

I can’t believe it took iPhone this long to implement swipe. That was the hardest thing to get used to not having when I switched from Android. I’m grateful to finally have it back although I keep forgetting to use it as I got used to pecking away like a little bird at the keyboard. Not quickly, or accurately, mind you.

Felix and I are both sick with a cold. I feel awful for him, just three months old and already has his first bout with sickness. He is stuffy and snotty and not eating as often or as much as usual, resulting in my boobs being rock hard and a bit painful. I have had to haakaa them a few times today just to relieve the pressure and I am a little worried my supply will dip if this continues. I don’t want to have to get out the actual breast pump but of course of it’s needed I will.

We go see his pediatrician tomorrow. Not for the cold, it’s coincidence that the appointment is happening now, but to check up on his mucousy stools now that I haven’t eaten dairy for a month. They are still happening, often, more than once a day. Poor boy, it seems it’s not dairy, or at least not only dairy. I fear that it might be eggs, which I eat a whole hell of a lot of… they will be really hard to give up.

We go see a new pediatrician next week… hoping we will feel she is a better fit for us. The one we have been seeing isn’t bad but we haven’t really felt like we could be totally honest with her about our sleeping situation and it just doesn’t feel right to feel the need to lie to your doctor lest you be judged. So we will see how this new person goes. She comes recommended by someone who seems to align mostly with our parenting values so hopefully it works out. I’ve never really quit a specific doctor before so it feels rather awkward as surely they will ask for our files to be sent along but I don’t really feel like explaining to the current pediatrician that we didn’t appreciate her judgmental/lecturer vibe and are seeking someone who trusts that as parents we are somewhat informed and not just making choices willy-nilly.

I’m so excited to start working with this new client. He seems very motivated and to trust me and the process that we are embarking on. We will see… I never thought I would be looking so forward to working with someone in his age range but I feel up for the challenge as I’m sure I’ll experience plenty of countertransference along the way. That’s what supervision is for, right?

I sometimes can’t believe I’m going to make it in this world as a private practice therapist but it seems like it might actually happen for me! I am so grateful and in love with my job. It has taken so much effort and experience to get here, all worth it! It just feels like I am actually offering my most authentic innate gift to the world and that is such a precious thing to be able to trade for the income needed to support myself and my family.

Ok, time to sleep, hopefully I’ll wake up feeling better tomorrow morning than I did this morning.