So, I came here to write, and changed my mind...then changed my mind again. I feel like I'm running over with emotion...I'm REALLY upset and I don't really have anyone to talk to.
OK...time to get REAL: I'm married to an alcoholic. It's hell. I hate beer and it's making me HATE my husband because its all he thinks about. He spends way too much money on it and it's financially draining and if you dare say anything he goes off on you. He did something as of lately that I thought he would NEVER do and it has me super upset. He hit me. It didn't really hurt, but more took me by surprise. I was laying in bed, feeding my baby girl and he got mad, got out of bed and he said some crap to me on his way out of the room, I said some crap back to him and he turned around, (he was drunk) curled up a fist and punched me in the low back. (he claims he "tapped" me in the ass). No, he curled a fist, and he punched me. Luckily, his aim was off a little and it didn't hurt much. It hurt my feelings more than anything because we have been together ten years and he's never done that to me. A little history...in January 2013, he had a heart attack and for a LONG time after that he didn't drink like he used to...he was really good, he'd have a few after work and then be good and eat supper and go to bed at a reasonable time, etc. He was also a very good husband for a very long time. Right about January 2014, he started back drinking...binging, not on the level he did before the heart attack but enough to make him act like a colossal butthead! I've about had it and now that it's not just me...now that I have a little girl to think about, I'm examining the possibility that I may have to leave him. It hurts, because I love him very much! He is irrational when you try to talk to him about it...he's say stuff like "I don't bitch about you eating food." REALLY??? Or, he will attack another person in the household, pointing out stuff other people do wrong, usually picking on my son. This is a bad situation and I can't see it getting better, at least, unless I show him I'll do something drastic if I have to and give him a reality check! All I know is, I can't live like this anymore!
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