First day jitters in End of the day thoughts

School has just started and just like any other student I am beyond stressed. This year is my senior year and fears of becoming an adult are settling in, I have never been so busy in my life. I have my ap high school classes, my community college classes, I joined band, got a job, became a babysitter and personal taxi to my two younger sisters. During the summer (and most of my time in high school) my only focus was having fun- this meant of course drugs, parties, bad decisions, and lots and lots of sex. This transition from carefree to completely booked took place in under 24 hours. All of my friends (who have schedules that are designed to coast through senior year stress free) continue their exciting high risk lives without me. I feel so out of place with all of the college bound honor students I’m surrounded with, but I can’t keep up with my usual group of delinquents and pot heads. I’ve always been a school smart type of person, but never have I put in any real effort. This weird divide between the people I am forced to be around and the people I have grown up with has added an identity crisis on top of all of my other worries and responsibilities that are on my plate, but hey school has only just started. Maybe after the dust settles I’ll grow accustomed to my new schedule and make some new friends.