umm, so its my 1st time in this site so yeah, this day has been happy and sad and, it’s not really different to me. it happens most of the time but like, everyday, different things and different people can make you happy, or sad off course. let’s take my classmate andrew as an example, who made me happy with simple moves anddd some of it were weird like putting a pen and twisting it in his belly button and yeah those stuff. another person is grantt who just laughs and instantly makes me smile or laugh as well. nothing special ok. nothing at all. not being sarcastic. i also have my two crazy friends kimmy and casey who showed off their double chins to each other and omg i was laughing like crazy. and im not gonna forget to mention their ~woah~. there’s hannah who kinda makes me laugh coz of her face. another one is marco who can’t laugh properly HAHA i swearrr i can’t remember the others but they made me happy too.
soo let’s move on to the things that made me sad that has been going on since last night, but im getting a hand of it.
the 1st one is that this friend of mine aaron is mad at me?? oh i swear he doesn’t mind me, he doesn’t notice me when i talk though i know he heard it coz duh, he heard a person from a far but not me right beside him?? and also he seen zoned me. he snobbed my message. how did i know? he chatted all group chats except me. like seriously. and also when we were presenting, his eyebrows were knitted like hell, and didn’t clap for us. but he clapped for the other groups like wtf did i do?
the 2nd one is that i found out that some chinese girl from 7th grade (im in 8th grade btw) likes my friend grantt. well i don’t really care but i felt kinda upset?? i don’t know. i don’t like him ok? i get super annoyed when she checks on him in our classroom so i had this “reflex” to stay at our classroom door and watch every move she makes. making sure she won’t be able to make a single move. and disclaimer, i don’t like grantt ok? he’s my ‘’bro’‘. we’re literally same age but yeah who cares. its getting annoying as in. but i don’t think she really likes him coz i haven’t heard it from her but, yeah, kinda obvious.
well the next one happened like awhile ago…yeahh
3rd is when jhanel pissed me like i was about to pop off, i was pissed. she told the whole class to be freaking quiet when she herself is talking to aaron. and she even dare answer like she did the right thing to do? right. i was near to crying but it’s ok. i was just really hecking mad.
4th is that, i don’t know anymore.
im just sad.
but at least people are there to comfort me.
one thing im really curious about is, how do they instantly know im sad even when i don’t show it?
also i really appreciate how they go to me and ask me why. even the people who im not really close with, or actually im close with everyone.
overall this day has been ok, yeah. just moderate and i hope tomorrow will be much more exciting. ill go ahead listen to some songs which are mostly by bts coz i got some taste. okeh byee ><
edit (7:07 pm):
i became even lonelier when he cleared his nickname and my nickname
i dont know anymore
im fucking sad
edit (7:21 pm):
and seen zoned me
💔💔💔
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