I'm just so angry all the time now. When people talk to me they get on my nerves, I want to scream at them to shut up. When someone makes me angry with there jerkiness I want to punch them into the ground. When something isn't going the way it should all I want to do it brake something.
I roll my eyes, I ignore people, I sigh out loud. I'm literally screaming with my body language but people just pretend like they don't see me. And that makes me even more angry. I can get angry at someone nice who is even concerned and dose see me but when they try to talk to me I just want to jump down there throat.
I have day dreamed about violence, and just releasing all this anger out on someone. Someone who wants to take the abuse from me, who wants me to beat on them, and then keep coming back for more. The more my mind wonders the closer it gets to a sick twisted BDSM fantasy. But I want to hurt someone in the worst way that I'll take who ever I can get.
I'm not really going to hurt anyone, but the thoughts are there. And no matter how my mind tries to help alleviate the rage building up in me, I just can't seem to release it.
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