Dear God 4 in My Prayers

Dear god today I am asking for forgiveness. I don’t know what for specifically, but a lot. I’m sorry for any deceptions I’ve portrayed, for any hurt that I’ve cause, I’m sorry for thinking I’m better than others, and I’m sorry for infringing on others. Dear god I’m still confused about this hole inside of me. Why am I so so terrified, I don’t even know what I’m scared of god. Tonight I pray for guidance through this. I pray for help to show me the way. I know logically everything should be fine, but my mind doesn’t work like that. I feel as if every emotion I feel is amplified and I am stuck in a dizzying world of sound and color. But I also feel numb and dark and empty, so god tonight I pray for the answer. I pray for love, not just love for me but love for all of those that are scared, lonely, or have none. I pray for the world itself and all of its inhabitants. Dear god tonight I pray for guidance.