Tonight I am struggling. in My life. My heartache.

Tonight I am struggling with every thought about every thing. Why does life have to be this way? How can everything be so good, and then suddenly it’s gone. One night you are home with your family, going to bed with the love of your life, and the next night you are sleeping on the couch because there’s no point in going to bed if you have no one to go to bed with. How does everything change so fast? Though I know everything I have done has been for the best, I wonder if there could have been another way? Could I have pushed through just a little longer? Could things have changed in time and I just didn’t give it enough time? How do I have so many friends, yet feel so alone in this heartache?