7/18/19 in my life

my cousins had been staying with us for vacation, and they’ve just left. i don’t really have friends that i want to hang out with at the moment. i just think i feel kind of lonely, and i have to put on a type of charade for the people i meet outside of my house or else they won’t like me. i’ve always been jumping from one friend group to another, and i finally thought that i would be able to stick with these people for all throughout high school. but two of the nicer ones moved, and now i don’t really want to hang out that much with the meaner two that are left. :(