Wouldn't it be great if they could bottle motivation?
I can't seem to find motivation in anything recently. I don't know exactly why i want to lose weight anymore, at first it was the prove it to everyone else that i could do it; but the truth is i don't think anyone would notice me if i was 400lbs or 40 lbs.
I know everyone says you should do it for yourself but i honestly don't care about myself.
It was so much easier when i was doing it for someone else, deluding yourself that you are doing it out of love is a good motivator. Right now i don't love anything to be honest, i can't even be bothered getting out of bed in the morning. I'm making no progress daily. I'm not even taking driving lessons at the moment and it's a real bummer, not to mention i bought the car to improve my life and finally get a job and the motivation is completely gone. The idea of getting up daily to work to eventually die is a real killer, it's pointless.
I don't know how to get out of this pit of self loathing anyway is the point, i just need a little push in the right direction but it seems like i can't even bring up my problems with anyone because they would think i'm being dramatic or just generally don't have the time for me.
I decided to do some research on the medication i've been taking which includes orlistat and T6's. T6's say they can give depression and nervousness aswell as muscle spasms and tingling in the arms and legs etc.
Orlistats is also very long. I'll post it.
Bladder pain
body aches
chills
cough
diarrhea
difficulty with breathing
ear congestion
fever
general feeling of discomfort or illness
headache
loss of appetite
loss of voice
lower back or side pain
muscle aches and pains
nasal congestion
nausea
runny nose
shivering
sneezing
sore throat
sweating
trouble sleeping
unusual tiredness or weakness
vomiting
Tightness in the chest
tooth or gum problems
troubled breathing
wheezing
Bloody or cloudy urine
change in hearing
contagious diarrhea
dark urine
difficult or painful urination
earache
fast heartbeat
frequent urge to urinate
general tiredness and weakness
hives
hoarseness
irritation
itching
joint pain, stiffness, or swelling
large, hive-like swelling on the face, eyelids, lips, tongue, throat, hands, legs, feet, or sex organs
light-colored stools
noisy breathing
pain in the ears
rash
redness of the skin
shortness of breath
skin blisters
swelling of the eyelids, face, lips, hands, or feet
troubled swallowing
upper right abdominal or stomach pain
yellow eyes and skin
Anxiety
bloating
blurred vision
cold sweats
coma
confusion
constipation
cool, pale skin
depression
dizziness
dry skin and hair
feeling cold
hair loss
hoarseness or husky voice
increased hunger
indigestion
loss of appetite
muscle cramps and stiffness
nervousness
nightmares
pains in the stomach, side, or abdomen, possibly radiating to the back
seizures
weight gain
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