An old friend from DE reached out to me to let my know that Digital Expressions was closing down, and it was a shock. I hadn’t written since 2012, but all of my memories and friendships came rushing back. I visited my old diary and started reading from the beginning. I quickly was transported to a younger and much less mature me, but it was me and my words and it was fun to reminisce. It made me sad that I stopped writing.
My first entries were in January of 2003. I was a senior in high school. I wrote all through college, into grad school, and as I started my career. There was a lot about my horse, Cloud, and my first boyfriend, Nick. I went through my break up with Nick…my first real heartbreak on Digital Expressions. I also met the ‘rebound guy’ Rob.
So how to catch up on 7 years??? Will any of my old DE friends remember me? Do they want an update? Can I get back into the journalling lifestyle? Can I keep up with it? I’m not sure!
So for those of you who remember me, I will try to type a brief update. When I left off, it was 2012. My life revolved around my horse, Cloud, my boyfriend, Rob, and my job at my second school district. I was living with my parents, and basically just trying to figure out where I wanted to go in my life.
So first things first, Cloud. He is no longer with me. I feel as though my entire DE diary revolved around Cloud, because my world revolved around him for so long. I had bought Cloud just 2 months before I started writing in DE. Cloud passed away February 15, 2018. He was aging and something started happening with his neck and neurologically. We tried for about a month to make things right for him, but in the end I knew in my heart when it was time to let him go. It was the hardest and easiest decision to make. I knew I had to let him go, but obviously I never wanted to face life without him. He was just there for me…for so long…for everything. I miss him every day. The day that he died, the last thing I whispered to him was to send me a horse when I was ready. And he did…before I thought I was ready! I wasn’t looking, but a horse named ‘Said’ came to the barn that I was taking lessons at. He was there for almost 2 months last summer before I finally rode him, and when I did we just clicked and I just knew. I leased him for a while, and bought him March 2, 2019 and changed his name to “Cedric”. We are at the beginning stages of our relationship, but I know in my heart he was sent from Cloud and he makes me really happy.
Next, Rob. Would you believe that the ‘rebound’ guy from my relationship with Nick and I are still going strong??? I knew you wouldn’t! I met Rob on eHarmony just a couple of months after getting dumped by my long time high school sweetheart. I’m sure everyone thought that Rob was just a rebound, but he wasn’t! Rob and I have been together for 9 years. It will be 10 years in October. When I left DE, I was living with my parents. Rob and I moved in together in 2013 and adopted a cute border collie puppy named Lambeau. We lived in an apartment for three years, then a rental house for 2 years, and last year we bought a house together. For the record, we are not married. We will be someday, but we just aren’t. I know it confuses some people. I think its funny that at some point everyone stopped asking WHEN we were going to get married and now ask IF we will ever get married. He makes me happy and I love our life together. We’ll get married some day, I just don’t know when. It’s not the most important thing :)
As far as my job, I am in a new school district. I just finished my third year. It’s actually MY old elementary school…the one that I went to when I was a kid! I am so happy, I think I’ve finally found my place that I want to be forever. My last school district was drama. We had new administration every single year that I worked there. It’s no way to live! I am so happy at my current district :)
I think that is enough of an update for now. It covers the basics of my life. Right now my life is revolving around Rob, our dog, our house, my new horse, and work. Oh yeah, I have a second job, too. I left Main Stay, the farm I was working at, after 5 years. It was just too much work for not enough pay. I loved it, but working holidays and every weekend was getting old. Now I waitress part time. I waitressed throughout college and I really enjoy it, and the money is good. So this summer I am picking up extra shifts at the restaurant since I don’t have school :)
I really promise I’m going to give this a good try! I want to keep writing and get back into it! Thanks for checking in and reading my update!
+wojo+
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