5/7/19 get to know me/ the break up in the misadventures of Supernova

hello my stars, Supernova here. it’s currently 11:25pm so imma make this quick. i’m 14 going on 15 and my parents are divorced, my dad is in jail and my mom is remarried, i have 2 brothers, 1 step brother and 1 step sister who could care less about me and and my friends (more on them later) so intro aside you all want the tea…today i broke up with my boyfriend…(we’ll call him Asteroid to follow my space theme) well Asteroid only seemed to want sex from me and whenever we were together he just seemed like he’d either rather be fucking or hanging out with someone else…so i ended it, reasonable right? well he (right after i broke up with him i might add) decided to go hug all his friends as if to say “i’m free who wants to fuck?!” he wrote “single” on his forehead and i, who really hated having to break up with him, was absolutely devastated…did all those “i love you”s mean nothing?! did he really only see me as a sex object? did i mean nothing to him? was it all just a show? lemme give you some background as to why this is so upsetting: we dated before, he broke up with me for reasons that don’t matter, he begged me to take him back, he put up with all my bullshit and pettiness, he was madly in love with me, so finding out that he doesn’t give two fucks that i broke up with him really fucking hurts…he said he deeply truly loved me…now it feels like a lie…and i’m pissed…am i stupid for thinking someone might actually be genuine? i guess so…well my stars, i guess that’s what i get for believing in love…
~Supernova