You know, all of this talk of winning the lottery and being the luckiest person alive may have been a little premature. Because after I wrote all that stuff, I had a little…experience at work.
I seem to have a bit of a low spell every afternoon. It’s been this way since my injury. It’s very noticeable as I seem to feel really good when I wake up and pretty darn good when I go to bed at night. It’s just those in between times where I feel really off and not well at all.
So, there’s a blood pressure cuff up by the CEO’s office and I was told to check my BP any time I wanted just to keep a check on things. On my first day back, Monday, I decided to check during my “slump” because my readings had been PERFECT for about three days…I was just so curious.
Unfortunately, I was having a pretty severe spike at the time I decided to check. My readings were 163/106. To some, that doesn’t seem high, but it’s CRAZY high for me…and the diastolic (bottom) number was near crisis level. Remember, they kept me in the hospital overnight to observe me, and that was for numbers lower than this!
Drama ensued.
Everybody was well-meaning, but it became an event at the office and I was so flustered and scared and even embarrassed. A good portion of the office started making a fuss over me…trying to make me comfortable and rubbing essential oils on me and making me sit down and asking me what they can do. I tried calling my doctor and was put on hold and then my CEO came over and told me that I wasn’t driving home…that I had to take an Uber or Lyft and she’d pay for it and to leave now. Granted, it was nearly 5pm by that time, so it wasn’t like I was leaving the office early.
But GEEZ, people! I love everyone for trying to make things “easy” on me, but it ended up being such a stress!!
Even my Lyft driver had to put his two cents in after my doctor called me after hours while I was in the car. Everyone has an opinion about this because there are so many people on blood pressure meds and/or blood thinners and think they know what’s best - even though the don’t know my situation. I’m walking around with an injury. I may not look injured, but I am. Truly, I appreciate the advice, but DAAAAMN, people! I just needed a place to lie down and have everyone shut the fuck up!
So. My blood pressure is still not completely stabilized, but I was able to double up on the BP meds for now (doc said it was ok), and I’m feeling better.
The most relieving thing is that I had a meeting with Boss yesterday who told me that if I’m ever feeling bad to just quietly take myself home…no fuss, no muss. I can go home and rest and get back online if I am able, or I can just rest and come back when I’m feeling better.
You have NO idea how much that helped my state. It was the most helpful thing he could have said, and even though I left the office at 2:30 yesterday, I will not be abusing that privilege.
I did end up postponing my date for tonight with CD. I think he was a bit disappointed, and I’ve tried to just push it off until tomorrow evening when it’s not raining like a bitch, but he may have his kids, so we’re playing it by ear while he tries to rearrange his calendar. Still, he’s pretty damn funny and is helping to keep me on my toes…here’s some interaction we had this morning:
Time will tell if we see each other tomorrow, but I’m hoping. But also, I PROMISE if I’m not feeling up for it I won’t go.
So, that’s my update for today. I’ve slowed down a bit. Just a speedbump in this journey, but I’m getting there and learning along the way. I feel good right now, and I’ve even done quite a bit at the office (I’m on my lunch break and don’t have the dog with me today, so I’m not even up and walking her).
Still so very thankful for the wishes, thoughts, prayers, notes, texts, etc.
xox,
GS
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