sleep walking in 2019

3.22.19 - 4:11pm

I’ve been hitting this afternoon slump the last couple of days. It’s not something that normally happens to me. I’m usually pretty on top of it for the whole day but I think it’s finally catching up with me. This season is killin’ me. I am so done and ready for it to be over.

There isn’t much left but I don’t know if I’m going to make it. All I want to do right now is lay my head on this desk and take a long nap. Even just a 30 minutes nap sounds so nice. If I got home earlier I would totally take a nap after work and then get up again. That’s how tired I feel right now.

Last night I went to bed around 10 o’clock. I decided to turn on my music and discovered the pandora station has a sleep timer, which is pretty awesome. I only put 15 minutes and I barely heard it go off. Then of course my mother dropped something in the kitchen [yes I go to bed before she does. haha] but it didn’t take me long to get back to sleep. Had some super weird dreams though. A couple of my uncle that just passed away. Night before last it was of a tarantula I was trying to eat. I know there were other weird things. My subconscious has been on fire.

3.23.19 - 3:00pm

Well, looks like I ran out of time to finish any of this yesterday. I could have sworn I wrote a lot more but that’s alright. The evenings are always busy and then that gets mixed in with trying to wrap up the end of day stuff so I run out of time.

Oh well. It’s alright. Not like there’s much going on. I talk about the same stuff all the time anyway.

I think work’s been starting to get to me lately and I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed. I tend to need a really good cry whenever this starts to happen. It’s very cathartic. I don’t understand people that don’t cry at all because it releases so much pent up emotion for me. I usually use whatever will spark the tears and just go from there letting it all well up and pour out. Last night it was the neighbour’s friend.

It’s the 26th now and I didn’t make the time to come back in here to finish. It’s kinda pointless to continue since I have no idea where I was headed. I guess I was basically going to give a long drawn out explanation on why crying is cathartic and how I used my mixed up emotions regarding the neighbour’s friend to get it all out of my system. haha.

I’ll probably start another entry with updates on where my head’s at this day. It fails me sometimes.

rose.