social anxiety? in Feels.

This is the third and last entry for the night, but I just had to put it here because it’s been on my mind for an awful lot of time. I’ve denied it for a couple months, but now it seems like the only logical explanation. I think I may have social anxiety disorder. Now, don’t take this the wrong way, like those people who self diagnose their cancer and bipolar disorder. I actually think that it’s the most plausible possibility because even other people have questioned whether I had it or not because of the way that I talked and shook during a standard conversation. I struggle to even stand up to get a tissue because I fear that everyone will stare at me, or that everyone will judge me because I dared to grab a tissue. I can’t order at a restaurant without shaking. Being put in any social situation will make my heart sink, and I’ve gone as far as hiding in the pantry to get away from other people in fear of getting judged. It’s probably just an insecurity issue but I’m not sure.