I just hate all the fighting. I love him but seriously!? It's ok for him to do what he wants but I'm just supposed to roll over when he tells me too. It's complete bullshit. I try and try and it doesn't seem good enough. When he complained about me being on fb all the time I stopped. Now he's on there all the time and it's ok, I guess because it's important to him. I feel left out. When he would be home at 7 I made sure supper was ready. I would get the kids ready for a bath and he could relax. Up until this past weekend he never did that for me when I worked. I would work a 12-13 hr shift and come home and still get the kids ready for bed while he did nothing! I guess I finally had enough and told him. I always keep stuff in.
A year ago today I told him I would give him another chance. Things were so much different then. Things have slowly returned to how they were. Last year things were bad then he actually started trying. We were happy. He proposed on March 25th. I said yes. I figured we could wait till August at least. He didn't want to wait. We got married June 1st. I was afraid it was too soon. We were ok until October and the fighting started.....again. I hate the fighting. I know the first year of marriage is the hardest, but damn!? Does it really have to be this hard? Our son is 14 months old. Last January I wasn't happy and was prepared to be a single parent again, just this time with 2 kids instead of one. Sometimes I wonder if we should've just gone that route. I love him completely, I just don't know how much more I can take.
I have a lot of thinking to do.
Her
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