Clichè in General feelings on things

I’m tired of waiting for the right moment, always feeling like I’m on the verge, but never quite there. I know it sounds so clichè but life is too short to spend this much time being so miserable with someone I don’t even like. I can’t even remember the last time I felt alive anymore. I used to be so strong, independent, free, and just alive. That died away, quickly and then slowly. I keep seeking solutions and each one fails. I give all my effort just to be trapped. I keep holding onto hope that eventually we will break free. But lately I just wonder will there even be anything left of me when the time comes? If it ever comes… I am defeated. Truly, just defeated.