I should've in General feelings on things

That day you asked me if I was happy i should’ve said no. I should’ve told you the truth. I hoped for you to speak up for years and you kept silent and when you finally spoke up I was afraid to answer. I was so blind sided I missed my chance. I’m sorry. I’m unobservant I have missed every chance and I am just seeing that today. I wish you had been more blunt or I had realized what was happening sooner. I guess I’m just going to silently hold onto my “I should’ve” just another regret for the books.