9 weeks to go in Pregnancy

Things will be ok! Everything will work itself out! Things will fall into place! You’ll make such a good mum! Just some of the things you get told daily but find so hard to believe. How can everything be ok when this was not supposed to happen! How will everything fall into place in the next 9 weeks! How will I be such a good mum when I can barely look after myself and have no real support! But instead of going into all that i just nod, smile and agree.
Everyone says pregnancy is the most amazing feeling in the world bringing new life into this world is the most precious gift yet I feel the complete opposite I feel ugly, I feel unattached and mostly I feel so so alone. The father of my baby wants nothing to do with us and it breaks my heart, everyone says this is all I ever wanted which true it is I’ve always wanted children but this situation is nothing like I imagined. I imagined being settled into a nice house with someone I love and the joy of those pregnancy test adverts you see on tv where they are so excited to be creating this life together. But I’ve had none of that I’ve had fear, loneliness, resentment and not belonging since the moment I found out.