enlightened in appreciation

so now that you kind of know my situation with my memory condition, i can move on with something that i remembered today, 03/09/2019 @ around 1:25 AM PST. a long, long time ago when i was 5 years old, my auntie set up a trust for me. so that when i was older, i’d have some money so that i can buy a house or condo and live in. you see, i’ve had dementia since i was a little baby. my whole family was aware of my situation and i’ve seen doctors after doctors and counselors after counselors and therapists after therapists and specialists after specialists. my dad spent a lot of money to have me seen by many, many different professionals regarding my condition. i didn’t understand the costs involved at that time, as i was just a child. so my auntie wanted to help me because, well… worst case scenario. so she set aside $10,000.00 to invest around 1989-1991. i cannot recall exactly if i was 4 or 5 or 6. she subscribed me to the wall street journal and had me choose my own investments, up to 10 stocks that she would have to approve. and i would have to write a report of why i had chosen those stocks. i did and i only remember a few of the different companies that i had chosen as a child. i chose apple because of the macintosh computer, microsoft because of msdos, ibm because they were making the hardware for microsofts software, nordstrom’s because my mom always shopped there and everyone was always nice to me when i went there with my mom and the store was always immaculate and clean, full of genuinely nice and helpful people. i also chose macy’s because of the same reasons why i chose nordstrom’s. i also chose costco because my mom and dad would always bring us kids there and same story of why i chose nordstrom’s and macy’s. i picked some losers though i don’t recall exactly all of them. i picked radioshack and well, they went bankrupt. so i lost the investment in that. i also picked mcdonald’s, well.. because there’s nothing out there like mcdonald’s and especially so if you’re a kid that loves happy meals. anyway, long story short. or short enough i suppose. i just remembered this all tonight and i wanted to make this journal or diary or book or entry because i wanted to post to the world of how much i love my auntie. i love my family so much for caring for me and taking the time to be patient with me. she took the time to teach me how to select stocks and for each stock i chose i had to write a report of why i was choosing that stock. i had to justify with my auntie the reasoning behind buying two competing companies, such as my decision to buy both nordstrom’s and macy’s. apple and ibm and microsoft. anyway, remember how i said i had a memory condition? well after all of the studying and picking stocks. i totally had forgotten it all. the fact that she even extended that offer to me, the fact she had did all of this for me, i had forgotten it all until after 20 years. my auntie had stipulated that she’d leave it to reinvest into the same stocks with the dividends for a minimum of 20 years. so after 21 years she reminded me and i totally forgot and i had no clue i thought that she was joking. she showed me the statements and behold, i have an account, a trust that is managed by my auntie that shows all of the stocks that i had chosen since i was a little boy. after all of these years, i forgot but she never forgot me. and the reason for me starting this book, journal, diary or whatever you want to call it is because or her. i’ve had journals and diaries and these kinds of things in the past, i used to write things down all the time but i had lost the motivation to write things down. but i wanted to write this down because i don’t ever want to forget the kindness that she has shown for me. because many times in my life i’ve forgotten the kindness that my friends and family has shown to me. and she’s not the only one to love me and remember me. so many of my friends and family remember me. but i am writing this down because now i remember and now i can start remembering these things and i can write all of the times that i remember so that i can be more appreciative and thankful for everything that i have. i will always give thanks to the heavens and i will always love my mother and my father and my aunties and uncles and brothers and sisters and the love of my life. i will always love life because life is so precious and life is so beautiful… and that is all for now.