Feb. 15 - Twitterpated in Posso's Prompts

Twitterpated (adj:) infatuated or obsessed, in a state of nervous excitement

It was weird, when I started writing this month, I actually thought about the first time I ever watched the Disney movie Bambi, and how at such a young age you learn such a word like twitterpated to describe your feelings for something or someone. Blah blah everyone gets twitterpated in the springtime or whatever, but it’s not spring yet and I can’t think of anything I’m obsessed over more right now than hockey and Oreos.
Placing all the women that have been touched upon recently aside, I guess I’ve been obsessed with getting myself to a stable mental place. The change obviously hasn’t been and will not be an overnight success but when it comes down to it, I needed the change personally to put myself back together. I’ve spent so much time ignoring how I feel and distracting myself with other people and their problems to the point where it has really torn me apart mentally. Working behind a bar all the time just makes the problem that much worse. We’ve already been over how being a bartender is like being an underpaid, overused therapist but the problem is that when I’m done with work, where do I go to vent? Other companions do what I used to do and head to another bar and get sloshed bitching together about how agonizing customers can be - trying the whole ‘stay sober for a year’ deal that I am, I feel like going to a bar at bar time is just tempting fate.
The hardest part for me lately has been the quality of the things I do with my free time.i just get this extreme feeling of boredom after skating all afternoon, coming home after work just to write or play video games until my eyes hurt. The struggle with becoming complacent in being okay with not drinking and entertaining myself with sober activities has been a telling one, but in just over five weeks I can tell you that I have yet to have had a night I can’t remember and I find myself not having to apologize to hordes of people for things I don’t remember and it actually has made it a little less stressful.