So yesterday was kiddo's bday..he turned 8! Waaaa. wow. 8 years since I first laid eyes on him..amazing. I gave him a couple of presents and made cupcakes for his class, but his party will be this Saturday.
so yesterday when I got off work, I had a text from his father. sigh. he said he had kiddos x-mas present and bday present. I had just told my boss that I had bought an extra present and was going to tell kiddo his daddy sent it (bc kiddo was crying about not seeing his dad for xmas and his bday) So when I read that message..idk, I just thought, God is this a sign? Should I drop the cold shoulder act?
back in June, I had told my ex if he wanted to see his son, get a lawyer and get custody papers drawn up. I thought it was for the best. Before that call, he hadn't seen him since that past xmas and it was for literally 20 minutes. He comes and goes, we dont hear from him for months, I'll hear he's in town and he'll never call to see kiddo. So I put my foot down and told him I was tired of seeing kiddo cry b/c he was in and out of his life. But sadly, I feel in trying to protect my sons heart, I'm hurting it as well. BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT'S BEST IN THIS SITUATION!!
so i decided, if he's wiling to show up, even for a little w hile, then let him. maybe this way, hopefully, kiddo will have SOME good memories of him and his dad together. so we agreed to meet at the park Sunday at 2. God be with me. It's never good when we are face to face. both of us want to have digs at each other...we're just horrible together.
so in other news, i called legal aide today about a divorce. it use to be you could pay 200 if you had no idea how to get papers to the other spouse. Well now, it's not like that. I have to have an address for him and he HAS to live there so they can serve him papers. Every time they go to serve him and he's nto there, I get charged. UGH! So I am going to make an appt with a lawyer and talk to them and see what I should do.
So frustrating. and it's my fault for procrastinating on this. i'm just over it. :/

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