Ok, okay. Don’t get me wrong, I had the most wonderful time with The Scot in New York, but I think I’m just coming back to reality and trying to dissect WTF just happened in the last few weeks. I agree with many of the notes in that:
• We had a fantastic time and we’re very compatible
• We have tons of fun together and make each other laugh (huge!)
• We “fit” sexually. He’s also absolutely all about ME (is that the Libra people pleaser in him?)
And yet,
• He’s broke
• The topic of the hotel bill hasn’t come up (but I will broach the subject this weekend when we FaceTime and I tell him I’ve paid off the credit card expenses from our trip)
• Did he really lose his credit card?
I don’t know. Regarding the credit card, there was a little bit of chaos on our last night together. It was the night he kept asking what’s wrong so there was already a tenseness in the air that I felt we got over, but we were also drinking and then he told me that his sister was messaging him about his mum going into the hospital due to her asthma! And on TOP of that, his card went missing. He excused himself from the hotel room so that he could have some privacy (I guess) when he talked on the phone. I didn’t think anything of it - I just thought he was talking with his sister and the bank - but I will say that if that were the case, it would have been 3 or 4 in the morning in Scotland. The bank I understand, but was he really talking with his sister in the middle of the night? Seems his mum goes in and out of hospital fairly frequently and he didn’t seem super distressed about it at all.
Who knows. I certainly don’t.
So, hm. I think what I’m going to do is talk to him face-to-face (FaceTime, anyway) about the hotel bill and see how the conversation goes and then try to get some kind of understanding about his upcoming visit in February - is he committed to this or is it just something that he keeps talking about? And THEN I’ll gauge from there what direction I should go.
Honestly and truthfully, I want someone here. Here with me. Close to me. I want someone who can come to my place at a moment’s notice and vice versa. I want someone who I can SEE on a weeknight and we can have a conversation over a glass of wine after work.
I realize that I can’t have everything, but I think that a local boyfriend is something not too far out of line. I’ve wanted that for the longest time and yet, let’s take a brief look at the last four men I’ve had “relations” with (the four guys I’ve been with since the breakup with SexyPants, my most recent ex-fiance):
• The Scot: lives in Scotland
• Bachelor Party Marty: My young boy toy who’d NEVER be a boyfriend
• The Bulldog: would never, ever commit to me (though we were the closest to BF/GF because we’d spend the night with each other, go to dinners, spend lots of time together)
• SHIP (Sexy Hot Icelandic Pilot): Well, we met in Shanghai and had a 3-day fling
Those are literally the only “relationships” I’ve had in the last 5 years! What the eff.
OK. Duty calls. Need to get a move on. More dissection to come, I’m sure.
xox,
GS
Loading comments...