Because I love him in Journal

I sat there. straw in hand. stirring ice water. he seemed so distracted. physically close to me but mentally far far away. I hate this feeling. where did our love go.? why isn’t he interested in me anymore? he’d rather read the back of a menu then pay any attention to me. over and over again, I try to start a conversation. but he clearly didn’t wanna talk. although it was for only about a minute, I cant believe he even had the nerve to pull out his phone an play his game. I hate when waiters and waitresses make eye contact with me. how come they are noticing I am upset and he isn’t? it is taking everything in me to hold back my tears and wear a slight smile. I keep thinking to myself why am I with him? finally he looks up at me and I say “I love you.” that is why I’m with him. because I love him.