12th of Feb in February 2014

Don't know whether this will be a regular thing or not. I'd like to write more often. Seems a good way to empty what's going on in my head. Not sure as to where to start or finish. I know in myself that things are not quite right. My thought process and behaviour is not rational. I'm unsure as to what this year is going to bring for me. Whether I'll have a better year or it will disappear like all the others as a fail. Haven't posted in Facebook for a while because I don't really want people there to know how I'm feeling. It's inconsequential anyway. I find being anonymous a much better alternative. The desire for someone special still continues to cloud my judgement and dominate my thinking. It's never a good thing based on the fact that the next 2 months will determine what 2014 will be like.