untitled entry in how i feel

It’s my first entry here. Life feels empty and meaningless. Technology makes me feel further away. I hate to admit that of my waking hours, I try to escape my sadness/despair/boredom by trying to read or by watching netflix or surfing youtube but I’ve come to the conclusion that those things just make me feel even more isolated. I love sleeping because it means I don’t have to live with my mundane reality. Sorry for the gloomy post. I thought writing would help me feel better and help me cope with my own thoughts. I don’t know how to go about living with this same thought pattern. I’m tired of watching Ted talks and self-help videos. I wish I could be ignorant to my self-awareness.