#1 in Just Stuff

A) What does the last text you sent say? And to whom?
“hahaha all good girly!! xx” to a co-worker who asked if I was free this weekend - J and I are going away for our anniversary. No work for me bish~

B) What does the last text you received say? And from whom?
“I’m so sorry hey! I didn’t even think” ^^^

C) What time do you wake up most mornings?
Work days - 7am, every other day 9-10am. I need my beauty sleep.

D) Are you afraid of walking alone at night?
Yes, but I’m also afraid of walking alone during the day too so it’s not a great comparison. Social anxiety lyf

E) What do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day?
Games. Overwatch if I want to be social, LoL if I wanna get mad or AC if I wanna chillll. This is my life now. #Adult btw.

F) Where did your last kiss take place and with whom?
J, this morning before he left for work. It’s our 3 yr anniversary today and the poor thing has to leave for work at 5am until 5pm. He was grumpy cos his shoelaces broke :P

G) Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school?
Yeah, sometimes. Specifically after I turned 14 and started being purposely super ~edgy~. My friends and I once staged a protest in class by standing on our chairs. It was super badass now I think about it. Now I get scared of offending my manager even just a little bit.

H) Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so?
Sometimes. There are things I really like about retail - how social it is, the feeling of accomplishment when you help people and they are thankful, how busy you constantly are. And there are things I really HATE about it - asshole customers, my manager, personal budgets. It would be nicer if there was less pressure but the people ‘up top’ are greedy and push us constantly. No recognition or anything. I think I’ll quit next year and go get a desk job.

I) Do you often pick up on double entendres and innuendos?
Too much. I’m also a pervert so.

J) Have you ever been offered drugs but declined?
No only because when I’m offered drugs I always say ‘YES’ enthusiastically. I haven’t done any for some time though. I was waiting to settle in to the new place first more before smoking weed, as it helps a lot with chronic pain. I still have two MD pills stocked away under the bed - saving for a special occasion. I love drugs.

K) Have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking?
Probably my therapist, M. Before her I was definitely stuck in a negative mindset, she’s the first psych I’ve been to to actually permanently affect my thinking into being more positive. I still remember her sitting down, staring me in my eyes and saying, “You have a beautiful heart and that makes you beautiful.”
It’s insane how many times the people in my life have derived my worth and beauty from how I look - I’ve never had someone tell me I was ‘beautiful’ because of my personality. That really affected me deeply. She’s great.

L) Have you ever been offered drugs and accepted?
Yes, yes and yes. The first time I was given weed was incredible. We watched Super Troopers and couldn’t stop laughing. Such a great memory.

M) Tell us something weird that turns you on.
Men that have nicely groomed beard, eyebrows, hair. Nice eyebrows on a guy just does something for me. I don’t wanna talk about it.
Women, or men actually, with tats, or women with really nice makeup. It’s not ‘girl crush’ either like I genuinely wanna sit on the face of women with razor sharp liner. Unf.

N) When did someone last admit romantic or sexual feelings for you? Was the feeling mutual?
J, we cuddled last night. Haven’t had sex since last week but I don’t blame him since he’s exhausted 5 days a week now. Yes it was, I am a huge cuddler and always down for the hugs.

O) What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately?
The future. Making plans, looking forward to things. Before this year the thought of it made me depressed but now I am excited and hopeful. Next year we have two trips for weddings - Adelaide & Toronto, Canada - and also spending Xmas with the Canadians too. I’m so excited to take J with me. And finishing this uni degree and getting a PHD! Gonna shove my doctorate in my family’s stupid faces. Petty but so worth it.

P) When did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation?
A couple days ago with a co-worker. She shits me really bad cos she puts in very little work - normally I call that shit out but I don’t want things to be awkward and uncomfortable. Waiting for the right moment/the right way to say it.

Q) Do you usually initiate hugs?
Only with certain people. With strangers/acquaintances, never.

R) Are you a very affectionate person?
Yes, towards my loved ones. Love me some cugs.

S) Can you roll your own cigarettes?
Nope.

T) What are you looking forward to?
Immediately, finishing uni for this sem. In the long run, going away for Xmas!

U) Do you have any tattoos. Do you want any/more?
No, I do want some though. Anxiety always holds me back. Just want a couple small ones.

V) Are you mentally strong?
My therapist ensures me I’m resilient but I’m still working on it. PTSD will do that to you. I’ll get there.

W) Are you physically strong?
Not at all. I feel like I could probably fight someone once the adrenaline kicks in but it hurts when people poke me, so maybe not.

X) Do you think you’re a good person?
I hope so.

Y) Name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now.
Getting my health together. Just booked an appointment for my nerve study so that’s a-go. I just need to start walking everyday again.

Z) What do you usually eat for breakfast?
Coffee. No time for food before work. Coffee all day erryday.