Oh to be able to embrace certain ideas. To not be bogged down in the 1000 things that float through my mind or crawl as the case may be.
I'm leaving my job of seven years because I finally hit the wall. There is only so much a person can deal with before it becomes obvious that simply being employed isn't a good enough reason to tolerate the endless stress and idiotic behavior I've seen over the years. I'd get into specifics but the short version is my boss wants me to keep working a two person area by my lonesome and I can't do it. I bust ass every single day and all that does is reinforces the assumption I don't need the help. I'm burnt out, I'm missing things, I'm upset and stressed every single day, I barely sleep most nights, I am done.
In addition, my wife and I are going to be saying goodbye to one of our cats soon. Claire is a loveable cat and has been with me since 2003 (I took her from a friend that had little kids and Claire wasn't adapting very well). She is very old and has been having problems for over a year now. It makes me want to cry even writing about it here but its the best thing we can do for her at this point. I know what it is to let this kind of thing drag out and how much worse it is. I'm not going through that again.
The weather has been brutally cold. I suppose that isn't helping any of the other things in my life but it's difficult to deal with every day just frigid and dry to the point where equipment in my lab is actually having problems (static electricity being one of them). I realize we are only about halfway or so through winter but I need spring to get here ASAP so I can at least feel good on that level.
There are days I'm hanging by slightly more than a thread but only just. Too much to deal with, lots more I have to sort out, and being worn out from work, its grinding me down. I know this will end, that spring will be here, I'll have a new occupation and whatever else is on my plate will be more manageable but right now, I'm treading water which is only one missed stroke away from drowning.
KOTD
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