I’m taking a mental break at work and figured I could knock out my entry for the day.
I had a dream last night - one of being sucked underwater. It was some kind of machine that would suck a person down and if that person struggled or tried to swim against it, it would pull him or her back down. The only escape was to go with the flow and not fight.
And the interesting thing is that it wasn’t me who was being sucked down - it just that I was watching this happen to other people - kind of taking mental notes on what to do should it ever happen to me.
How symbolic, eh? It was a very vivid dream and it actually put me a little at peace. I told myself not to panic at work today and that has worked. Even though it’s still been a struggle of a day, I’m feeling a million times better.
I have a meeting in a few minutes with Boss and Brown Nosey, and I’m not even going to let her get to me.
I mean, the thought just occurred to me. Why do I struggle so much at work?
later today…
So yeah, it’s been an okay day. I got a communication out to the sales team that was tough - and what I’ve been working on for three days straight. I had to work directly with BN (Brown Nosey) on this and I decided not to let her shit bother me.
And you know what? It didn’t! It was all fine and good. In fact, as it turns out, I can definitely use her to parlay this into something useful for what I need to do - in the near future anyway.
And then we’ll see what happens.
Again, would i like to keep this job after the 45 day period? As of right this very moment, yes. Because it helps to have a job to get a new one.
Am I committed to getting out? That’s the scary thing, because for as long as I’ve been moaning about this job, I’ve kept it…for YEARS. I wasn’t ready to truly commit to finding something different. I think once I actually SAY it then it will be real.
My heart is actually beating fast all of a sudden!
YES. I am committed to making the next BIG steps in my career. There. I’ve done it…I’ve SAID it!
Now we can start formulating the plan. Because even if it’s a side hustle or something to that effect, or a brand new gig, it’s got to be something different than what I’m in right now.
I’m committed to doing this!!!
IT IS TIME!!
xox,
GS
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