Good Friday morning. I’m still drinking my coffee and getting warmed up, though I’ve been at the office for a little while.
Mornings getting colder - winter is on it’s way! I don’t have a whole lot to write because I already feel like I’m moving into hibernation mode after I leave work in the evenings. I’ve taken to walking the dog on an abbreviated walk, eating a quick meal and then going to bed. I don’t like this schedule because it means I’m really not doing anything after work and I really want to use the time to be productive, so I need to break out of this cycle. What does that mean? More coffee? New warm clothes so I can walk longer with the dog? Whatever it is, I need to start doing it.
Thinking about starting to decorate for Christmas this weekend. I know! But have you heard about this study that finds that people who decorate for the holidays early are happier? I could use a little ‘happier’ in my life right now.
much, much later in the day…
Okay, guys. I’m home from work now. What a fucking day!!
Today was the day I believe my boss tested me from out of the office. He was working from home in the morning and then catching a flight to Denver to celebrate his grandson’s second birthday…which is all good, but he was bombarding me with email after email.
I mean FUCK. It’s time to get on the fucking stick to get out. I spent 50% of the day not knowing what the fuck to do! And then I figured it out. But by then it was kind of too late. UGH!! UGH!!! UUUUGGGGHHHH!!
Horrible.
And then I think….well, maybe it wasn’t that bad…but you guys. If I have to think like this then it’s just not right. I know you’re tired of reading all of this and believe me, I’m tired of writing it.
But I’m also scared by the thought of getting a new job and not knowing what I’m doing - all over again!
But look. Let me get VERY HONEST with myself: I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing NOW! I’ve been put into a new role! Sure, the product I’m familiar with because I created it, but tracking down orders and figuring out all of the follow up details has never been my forte. I’m a creator, not a follow-through-er. Heh.
And again, honestly, I am learning this part of it very quickly - I should use it as a super fast training and then take this information and RUN with it. I should be thankful that my boss is putting me through the ringer in this way because I can take all these learnings.
It’s all going to work out - I just know it!
Meanwhile, I was texting The Scot a little bit of what was going on today. Here’s the text he sent back after I said, “take me away from all of this!”
”Then sack it and come to Scotland. You will storm a job, we will find daycare for Martini, and we will spend our weekends walking on beaches, walking through beautiful countryside, running in countryside as opposed to a gym and spending the rest of our day exploring caves, coastal walks before snuggling in front of a country pub fire, local food, a couple of drinks, then all 3 of us to home, on couch under blanket and in front of a movie…before I take you to bed to make love and cuddle in…”
Sounds so dreamy. Would be amazing.
But first we have to meet!!
And yes, lots of talk about New York, but still no ticket confirmation…
Tonight I’m thinking of going out. One of my favorite crooners is singing at a super dive-y place that I love. The venue is just about the dive-y-est dive you could ever imagine, but the music is wonderfully classy and this guy sings with a FULL-ON orchestra so it’s a wonderful juxtaposition. I normally see this singer at the fancy-schmancy place with Maria as he sings there monthly, but there’s not enough room for a full big band, so he brings only a pianist, a guitarist and a drummer.
The stage is outside and it’s going to be cold and there are going to be bonfires, and I’m going to want to drink Grand Marnier. It will feel like the holidays and I’ll be happy.
I should go get ready now.
xox,
GS
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