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Touchdown in TheIntrovertedSocialButterfly’s non existent dating life

  • Oct. 16, 2018, 5:46 p.m.
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I met a guy. He’s so sweet. We started talking almost two months ago. We matched on a dating app… (Just like most of the guys I talked to) but this one I actually met. We clicked immediately once we started talking/texting. He was cute. Big teddy bear. Was a college football player. We had a lot of commons interests. We clicked. It wasn’t like that intense thing that happens when you do this online dating stuff. You know, where you text each other non stop for like 2 weeks and then.... nothing. This was so different. We went slow. We chatted but didn’t make it sexual. We actually got to know eachother. When he first called me, it was like I was talking to someone I already knew. And when he asked to meet me, I didn’t even hesitate. When we did meet up, we didn’t want the night to end. We didn’t hook up. We just wanted to be around eachother. I couldn’t describe how it felt other than feeling at home. We just hung out… for 6 hours.
That was a month ago. We still talk every day. We met up again maybe 2 weeks after our first meeting. (We are both single parents and work different shifts so schedules are crazy). And I’m patiently waiting to see him again.
He’s in the process of a divorce, just like I am. So we agreed we are going to take things slow. We were both in really long marriages and haven’t dated for 15-20 years. So it’s all very scary.
But I’m starting to worry that if we take things too slow, he may get bored and move on. We still talk every day. Most days he calls me on his drive to or from work. And on days that he can’t call, we text. He makes me so happy. He has such a gentle soul.
But still, I’m so scared that this is all going to blow up.
I’m sure it’s all in my head. I’m not one to let people in. After being in the marriage that I was in, my walls are built really high. I don’t trust people. I don’t want to be hurt again. But I want to let him in. I want to bond with him and move forward. How do I do that without seeming pushy? Should I just keep doing what we are doing and let it ride? I find myself getting a little impatient. I want more. But if he needs to keep it slow, I want to do that… because I want him.
I have such a hard time expressing my feelings and I’m afraid if I bring it up I’ll seem dramatic or demanding.
How can I find that happy medium?


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