I'm sitting at my breakfast bar, my NEW breakfast bar, listening to the whir of the new washer dryer as it goes about its business, and smelling the somewhat rubbery smell as it does the 'dry' cycle. I've never had a washer-dryer before, but since I was splashing out on a new kitchen and didn't want to see clothes hanging around trying to dry most of the time, I thought I'd treat myself to a new 'mod con'. The rubber smell is slightly disconcerting, and if I hadn't read reviews about it behaving in that way for the first few outings, then I would have been panicking. Never fear, its normal apparently.
I have a breakfast bar!! My very own, designed by me, made to spec, very handy, already much used, breakfast bar. I've only had the kitchen in a couple of days. Can you tell? :) smiles.
My five year old daughter is upstairs, playing with the neighbour's daughter. My child is 5. My neighbours is 4. Its nice to hear them together. Both 'only children', its good for them to have company and I get to see a completely different side of my daughter. With me, she is warm and kind and loving and funny. With her friend, she is a tad bossy and showy-offy, extremely funny.
We moved here a year ago. Moved out of a one-bedroomed, secluded little upstairs flat stuck in the middle of nowhere, with views as far as the eye could see... to our new house. Three bedrooms, on a main road, a 'fixer-upper', because of course, as a single parent I have LOADS of time on my hands, not to mention 'spare cash'. (Not). I'm getting there. My folks are invaluable. I'm very blessed to have them so close, and so helpful.
My new diary. I deleted my old one. I said a mantra as I pressed the button that would wipe out 2000 entries. The mantra was, 'I'm letting you go. I'm ready to let you go'. In so doing, I feel I want to make a fresh start. I used to enjoy writing about my life, and I regret not writing after my daughter came along. I guess it wasn't the right time, or I wasn't in the right frame of mind (for five years), or I simply haven't had the time. But now, with my new breakfast bar and 'designer teak' worktops, maybe I feel more in a space to get comfy and share some words.
Let's let bygones be bygones and look forwards.
For now,
Nel
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