Things I'm Scared Of in Things I Keep Bottled In My Head

I’m scared that my parents will be forever disappointed in me when they find out that i’m leaving the Mormon religion. I’m scared that they’ll treat me different and that I won’t be as close to my siblings anymore.
I’m scared that when i’m 18 i’ll be alone and won’t have support from my family.
I’m scared that i’ll go to college and lapse back into shy depressed 7th grade me with no friends and no hope.
I’m scared of hurting all my church friends and possibly damaging my relationships with them once I leave the church.
I’m scared of getting into students debts in college.
Im scared that I won’t find a job that i really love and be stuck miserable.
I’m scared that I’ll never fall in love.