things right now in Who I Am

Just as quickly as I realized my fingernails were so long and pretty I bit them off because anxiety.
I’ve been on and off crying today. I’m trying to just keep things moving.

Works been stressful lately. People are so mean on the phone.

I’m tired. I’ve been regaining some of this weight I lost back which is definitely depressing me.

Trying to keep it together

Kenny has been amazing. I never cry in front of him. but he knows I cry sometimes when im alone. hes really supportive and sweet. ive really come to love him quickly. as I do. im a lover. I always fall hard and fast. I can detach quickly and easily thought. which is… both terrible and great.

Matt texted me today.

I’m still fucked up whenever that happens. sigh.
I’m just gonna keep moving on. that’s the best thing to do.

even though a fraction of me feels like im just biding my time and waiting for thigns to work out. that’s a very small fraction. but I think that’s just the part of me that wonders about life and where all this shit lands me

I really really am digging Kenny though. He’s a special guy. He’s come to mean a lot to me <3 It’s weird to have something like this come out of nowhere. hes great though :)