next door update in 2018

11:06pm

A late night entry! Haven’t seen one of those in a while. We’ll see how it goes.
I also just discovered a tiny cut on my middle finger and that may prevent some typing, which I guess is good in terms of reducing my normal entry length. hah.

Can I just say that I type a damn good entry when tipsy? It’s currently on private but I’ve contemplated taking it off. I always feel a little sketchy doing that. No idea why! But it makes me feel like I’m trying to hide something and I’m really not. I’m just sorta ashamed that all I ever talk about is TF. I mean, I don’t think anyone even reads anymore, but maybe my future self wouldn’t like me for it. Like I’m so pathetic, but I seriously cannot help it! And I say that all the time but I can’t. How does one even attempt to control their feelings?!?

I’ll mention him some more in here so I can really feed into it! Honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if the mentions become more frequent instead of less. It’s been pretty much confirmed that his brother/family and his mom are moving in next door. sigh

sidenote: I hate to think the Universe has it out for me, but seriously? He’s literally the only guy that I ever really wanted, he basically broke my heart, and now his freaken mom is moving in next door to me! The family matriarch right there across the lawn. ugh. I wish I could figure out what I did in this world to give me this kind of karma....

But yeah, we were taking to A [my old-new neighbour] and she said that a week or so ago she saw this car slow rolling through the neighbourhood. Apparently it stopped in front of our house and the next one over and was just sorta sitting around looking at things. She ended up coming out of her house to check it out and recognized the ladies in the car. It was some lady she knows and TF’s mom. She asked them what they were doing here and the mom said she was moving in and was checking things out. Trying to figure out who her new neighbours would be. A told them about us by saying we were the ones that had the office. At least that’s what she told us. I imagine people say a lot more than that when they describe us, especially A. She loves to talk about everyone. She gives us these long drawn-out detailed descriptions of others, so I highly doubt that all she said was “the ladies that have the office in town.” Whatever though.

I just realized that 5 of this lady’s kids use our services! I don’t know if she knows that though.

Anyway, A had brought this up by asking if we were ready for new neighbours in October. I didn’t know for sure when it would happen but I was strongly guessing that it would be by the beginning of October just from all the little details the current neighbour had given us about painting and cleaning.

So I’ve officially given myself three weeks to build up some crazy strong immunity to TF’s bullsh*t. And by bullsht I clearly mean his charm and manly muscles. At least he’s gotten kinda chubby since we went out so that’ll help [although probably not since it didn’t seem to bother me when he showed back up in February. Even though he’s not my usual type at all!!]. Still I gotta do something! I mean, I don’t expect that he’ll be there every single day, but probably holidays [which just so happen to be coming up] and birthdays [which are probably every other week with how many of them there are!].

After our conversation with A, which didn’t amount to much because she doesn’t know the brother/wife and didn’t have much info to give, we were sitting in the courtyard talking about them. Mom made a comment about how she was going to tell the mom that she didn’t know how they were going to do it but she’d always been invited to the current neighbours parties and had to continue that. haha. I said I wanted to come along and joked about telling her about TF. I said that once I made the lady my friend [because basically all older ladies love me!] I was going to tell her how her son stood me up so she can get him in big trouble. ha. Mom ended up asking me what happened back then because apparently she never knew the excuse he gave me. I told her about the “falling asleep” and also about how I had to reach out to him because he’d completely disappeared. Not even gonna lie, if I do become friends with the mom/family this will probably come up in conversation at some point. I’ll throw that mother-sucker under the bus no problem. haha. =P

I really don’t think TF will ever bring it up himself and this way I’d be able to control the conversation. I love to make these things into jokes. Like I’d rather make the joke first than wait for someone to criticize or critique. I’m not sure I’d say it in front of him, but maybe. I just think it would be a funny thing to mention, eventually.

Still haven’t met the other new people. Mom met the guy but no one else. I was outside on/off today but didn’t see anyone. I’m better at avoiding anyway. I need mom to be out there to start the conversation and then I can follow her over. She’s a good buffer for an introvert like me. haha. A has been talking to them, and maybe hanging out, and it bugged me just a little that she was trying to act like she owned the block. It’s not a big deal but come on, I’ve been here my entire life and you just moved in like a year ago, don’t act like you know what’s going on just because you’re freaken nosy! I just don’t like the idea of her being the one to run the narrative. This is my space. haha.

Still kinda hoping Lucas will help move his brother in so we can shock him! =D Mom swears that he knows already and when I said that they didn’t have any reason to talk about us outside of the office she gave me a look like I was crazy. As if those boys just sit around chatting about us/me. Puhlease!

I’m going to try really really hard not to send creepy messages if I see TF outside through the window or something. Does he even remember I live here? haha. After the other day I went in to my email/phone and changed the spots that contained his name to things like “don’t chase”. hah. Seriously though. I need the reminder. I tried to change his contact but apparently it wouldn’t change the way his emails came in since he gets to set that. Instead I filed away all the recent messages into his folder and every time I want to reminisce I see that little note telling me not to be stupid. Building up immunity, remember? ;)

I do almost like the idea of some younger people being around the block. As much as I love my old folks, it’s probably about time I get me some new friends and stop being so “anti-social” as JR calls me. You never know who might have a cute brother/cousin/uncle! Except the not-yet-here people! Those brothers I will avoid!

It’s funny though because basically every time we get new neighbours I wonder if they’ll have a cute brother and now I know this guy does and I can’t touch him. hah. What a shame! =P Still not sure about the other side. I’ve seen some pretty good looking trucks in the drive-way recently! We’ll see. There might be potential. [Except they like the 49ers and I’m super sad about this.]

Gonna work on a sprinkler project in the morning, might run into someone. I really seriously need to finish my room but I’m struggling with the final few things. Mostly papers and old time memory inducing items. I don’t want to put it all back but my procrastinator side wants to shove it away for a later day. Definitely have to have that room clean before Thanksgiving when my uncle is supposed to come. Although he hasn’t answered my last three text messages so I’m thinking I’ll just let him sleep outside. hah.

I’ve got a few projects coming up in the next month or so, so that should create some distraction for me. Gonna work on the immunity thing and convincing myself not to chase. I have never wanted to turn towards being angry with him but maybe that’ll help? I need to get over this before I fall back into it again!

Mostly I just wanted to give updates on what’s going on around here. I got to spend the day mostly alone and got a lot of chores done combined with sleeping in. Watered, mowed, did laundry, washed down the dusty truck, hung some clothes on the line, went through a couple bags from the room, etc. Actually remembered to feed myself even though breakfast was at like 1pm. haha. It was nice though. I think I need more time on my own.

rose.
12:12am

Last updated September 10, 2018