Comparison in Troubled thoughts

It’s terrible to see someone else and immediately compare yourself to them. As I spot a fellow co-worker’s third beautiful car, I strip myself completely naked of any accolades I have ever acquired. I only see myself, my shitty civic that hasn’t been paid off, and a pit of despair that eats at my paycheck once a month. Coming from nothing, and being able to throw shows for a community I have been wanting to a part of would have made me ecstatic a few years ago. But now I’m here and the sight of a lifted truck belonging to someone I know just completely dulled out the light I had inside. A light that has been 5 years in the making, completely put out by the sight of someone else’s accomplishments. It’s spiritually fulfilling to be doing what im doing, but its leaving my wallet with much to be desired.